Good sub-mm wood rattan living diary also and an aunt about five years old living in a double room, her mother repeatedly said many times, what will become of life in the end it? very worried, very nervous. In the evening, go for a walk with me and aunt sat on the bench under the cherry trees, flowers and leaves can be seen between the flashes of light. Although I was too myopic Deep not clear, but it can feel rather out of green leaves and white woven a only nine lights, four-thirty the provisions of dinner, or make me feel a little too exaggerated law. In this way, the time quickly flowed like water as the day is fading a hurry. electromyography (super pain) , ECG, X-ray, hearing test hh check it every day to do so much, I like the lost child, being led in a wide traveling all hospitals. However, I do not want to be cast into a dark hallway , as a result, even the depressed mood will follow up. Walking up and down stairs, touch switches etc, and have the camera with sixteen centimeters filmed. In the future, what will I do? not, should be able to become like? like me, can engage in what kind of work? Perhaps, it can only do something like this: First, do no physical activity also; Second, the only brain; Third, the income to be stable. too hard! Where can I find more than meet the three conditions work it? hospital life (2)
with a good command of several young doctors move my body. hh even have the so-called pelvic body movements. Finally, they actually said something: it! I really do not want to do this anymore! long-awaited Sunday! mother and sister came to see me, and everyone close to the roof to dry clothes. beautiful blue sky, white clouds are incredibly beautiful. coolness mixed with the breeze, so I feel very happy. feeling finally returning to the earth and back. Today I have taken for medical diagnosis of spinal fluid. head hurts, really hurts. is the injection of the relationship? uncle family came to see me. His eyes were red, it seems to say something, but said nothing, just staring at me. night and early today too, and now his face looks scary, right? cried the same. Xia Yu, . for the physical therapy doctoral) the question test my basic subjects. I was very stupid to say, for example: the very good of it hh Oh, and I said I was smarter, better is not out of thin air in terms of homework. This is from home to school, we all acknowledged. do not believe it, look at the report card scores to prove it was. Listen said a student of PT. Kawabata is very mischievous, but even so hh, mm than me Well at least he has been very healthy. And my age, why the body will become like hh I kept thinking, to blame the tears to flow down. call it, I really can not be written out. But what had in mind to write it, the mood seems to have a lot of pleasure. All along, the reason I tried to study, because of what I have in addition not. If all the knowledge in my head hollowed out, probably only the defects of the body only, I do not want this kind of thing really happen to me. so lonely, so sad, this is the reality? I'd rather with a clever mind to return for a healthy body.
2. Research (1)
test: on the panel by hand touch the stars. injection ago: R (right) 12 times, L (left), 17; three minutes after the injection: R (right) 18, L (left), 22; five minutes after injection: R (right) 18, L (left) 21. rehabilitation exercise (1) hands and knees to move the center of gravity (as drawn semicircle); hands and knees to lower my eyes when rotating the pelvis when the hand rehabilitation support to raise the arm to rotate the pelvis when the foot * can not move, the scapula must not turn inward. (2) reflected movement to raise the arm when the support legs, in the fall when these games very helpful. scapula inward turn, will put the focus back. (3) hand hands swing back and forth motion, try activities pelvis. right hand forward, backward = back = right pelvic pelvis forward in the right words: normal human walk is a step left leg stretched his right hand, step right leg extended his left hand. But my the situation is always one step left leg stretched his left hand, step right leg stretched his right hand. weird, I did with the feet together with hands. (4) hands and knees to the action is completed, the knee got up. (5) corrective action two arm back stretch, knee to the doctor in the back, to straighten the spine. (6) to practice the basic movements step the left leg stretched forth his left hand right foot step forward and take the right leg. This simple walking, but for me very difficult. (7) Yamamoto stand to listen to the doctor beforehand I said: br> However, I did not expect to actually hit him in the corridor. boys are quite young, at most, six or a small country, one, he gave me the feeling quite cheerful, it is difficult to imagine the children look so fresh, the body so be it. used to it, sensation of pain than ever to reduce a lot. Next is the recording, presumably to test the throat, tongue and other vocal organs of the motor nerves, right? doctor said Yamamoto, rehabilitation treatment is important. Although I've been trying to inspire their own fuel, but still feels very hard. Mom, I'm sorry. hh I want to cry in the sun scorching on the roof, a doctor with a sixteen centimeters camera help me take pictures, the body feels a pain. PT. Kawabata position that I walk Or like robots. good grief mm listened to his words good sad ah. until the time of the morning medication, PT. Kawabata chatted with me a story from his childhood: back of the head hard against the teacher! stunt Oh, I can one catch the cicada on the trunk! mm, however, because I as a shell under the cicada cicada, Oh hh patent seems to trick or boy bar. I have a fever to thirty-nine degrees II will not just die, right? No, I will not yield! I miss my mother and family hh Damn! critical moment I was always so useless? in the end when to get out of mental and physical balance it? go on like this, I could grow up afraid to imagine the future. This year, I was sixteen years old. and then kick down a few needles, injection treatment is over, you can then go through the discharge procedures. If ordinary people are finally coming to here, certainly a good mood straight cheers, but I do the same. just started when the injection treatment, side effects obvious, often nausea, headaches, although the doctor said that drugs take effect, but looking back into the past to jump me, I do not think Drugs have little effect on me. Now in addition to the Student Handbook, the addition of my body out of a three disability manual. I dominate the body's motor nerve cells in the cerebellum, it seems that for some reason become unable to function properly. It is said that kinds of diseases until the first hundred years ago were found. illness picked me why? I did something wrong? I do not want to believe this is the so-called fate!
2. the second semester
Mom told me that it does not matter footed, clumsy does not matter, the key is the correct posture, we must go all out to do. although I want to tell her that I have been very seriously. But in fact, I understand that my actions may seriously may be the result is often frustrated hh heart. opening ceremony, the mother and the teacher talked. that I passed the illness after hospitalization although some improvements, but because the disease is extremely difficult to treat, very difficult to completely recover; and, in the daily life and other extra-curricular activities, other students could have trouble. On the second point, a lot teachers please take care of my mother. Next time, perhaps there will be other new situation occurs, I hope that teachers do in within my power. mother should help me do many things, such as: textbook classification, with only necessary to go to school every day; buy loose-leaf notebook, and marked, this way I can quickly find desired by category information; to my current hand-held bags, replaced with strap-style, in order to reduce the body burden; a time when I go to school rush period, to prevent accidents from taking place, let me take a taxi from door to schools, school choice and then, as the case hh by bus or taxi mother said to me: a waste of money, the daughter of trouble again. I'm sorry, Mom. I do not want to bother you so ah hh
3. ominous thirteenth (1)
I usually take the bus in front of the school is home. get off the bridge in the Asahi, walking through the sidewalk, then a bus to the next station. lights turn green when the sky began to drizzle, a primary school boy look like an umbrella with me generously. His footsteps I feel some difficulty hh soon, but for the good-hearted people, I can not speak. In order to keep up with him, I pick up the pace mm to at this time, I am a careless dumping of the body forward. I fell the blood from the hh mouth emission, because of rain and wet asphalt road is gradually my blood red. a thought this might be so massive hemorrhage die, I fear, sadly irrepressible cry again. aunt fast corner bakery ran pick me up, she took me to the store, wipe clean with a bloody towel after me, drove me to a nearby hospital. The doctor called in accordance with my student handbook for schools, teachers on duty came quickly after that . wait for treatment after doctors, teachers and drove me back home. with children umbrella, bakery aunt, teacher, thank you for my lips swollen hh can not see who actually broke three teeth. handkerchief light touch to the wounds, even once they turn red hh My God! again how to say I am also a girl, now broken front teeth, has become so ugly, will be how to do it? hh I think my illness than cancer also abominable! because it, I look forward to all the beautiful young was taken away! If not this bizarre strange disease, and now I would have to fall in love, find their dream handsome boyfriend! mm I've had enough ! ominous thirteenth (2)
Ikeda management on behalf of the children's comic book, ? In my youth, and it was denied! Do I even love or be loved no chance it? my dream, free activities, walking, running, just like before, but back to reality hh free time All this disappeared in front of us, grasping grip also see the comic Li Nainai hh child is about to run away from home part, I think if they have the courage enough. This is not too useless to? recovery strength ah! Aya! my sleeping the whole day, had in mind all the scenes fall. K child care called to greet me, I'm so happy ah. but it seems still have some time to rest up. today get up as early as half past seven, my sister lake to go to Nagoya Asia. She is so cute, I could not help but want to kiss harm her. early benefits, such as a cream cake to the only occupied by me, ha ha! I'm sorry oh , everybody. delicious cream slid into the mouth to melt soon after, oh delicious!! even though now I have no front teeth, eat, become relatively very convenient, only a gulping camel to go into, but still delicious ah. tomorrow to see the dentist, I would like to quickly change back to Asia but also the original look. has been put on the table mirror, to temporarily close it into a drawer, and now the sub is not me, not Mom and Dad and friends also want to see sub-ah! my mother and I with the teaching of reading a knitting book, similar to the above there is a kid my mother had woven white wool dress suit. style organization do? Speaking of in earnest: not able to do things now, which of course will give you more trouble than others. but from now on, you and your mental game. In the eyes of others to do the broadcast, as the robot in gymnastics, but you words it is exercise, you are in the spirit of competition and their own Oh, Aya! Therefore, regardless of the final outcome, in order not to regret, we must live well, to believe that we have a future! mother knows Asia often cry, to see that The sub also, my mother really could not bear. but if you do not face the reality, no real standing in their position to consider the issue, well this is now full of life, then life in the future may no longer be continued . really can not do, mother and brothers and sisters will make every effort to go and you, but if you whine, or brother and sister fight, my mother will still blame you mercilessly. because no matter when the identity of Aya are the sister, and ordinary people no different as a child. you have to pick ourselves up, full of love and hope to live. even if others were cold and even ridicule, but also remember that patience with the monastery, took them as is to train it. to know love and Aichi, Aichi-born Asian but also as the name of the county, as in love and understanding grow hh ! I want the courage to look ahead and plan for the future. Some may find work at home job. For example, learn English, a translator at home in future? ; now like these also too early. You think about now can do, should do it. To work! come on! is ideal for my mother and I dialogue about the future.
5. Friends
my friends and I go to sunset, much of the sun floating down the red light hh incense smoke, although it will snap off instantly, but bloom the moment it is bright luster. so beautiful colors, what color is the apple! Y sub praise loudly: looks red. Y son really is a good person. But when I asked the Y child can go to study with her family, she decisively rejected me. I thought, she will not hesitate to agree me, but hey hh child from another point of standing in the position to Y, if she did not refuse but reluctantly agreed, but can not match the pace of my study, the results will be unpleasant, right? I know, I still lack self-control ability. If I say this because the problem affects the body's hormone self-control, then this argument is trying to avoid it? can be a real heart to express the idea of honesty, but also gains a listener, it must be a pieces is happy. My friends, thank you for letting me stand in the line of equality. S son smiled and said: The. Because Asia has not seen that kind of expression, why they feel cute ah. and they really want to be together forever.
6. distress (1)
women in early pregnancy after taking the fetus will suffer from disorders such abnormal limb malformations.) victims of female birth to a healthy daughter. diapers baby tightly wrapped in a small ass, she drank milk. This Operators to be happy about it? be why I still feel anxiety and worry? I feel that the Achilles tendon becomes the right leg straight and hard, and my heart very sad. replace the classroom for me, but a big problem. Whether through a long corridor or up the stairs, I need some decent help. And no matter how hard you try is doomed to be late, and sometimes late into trouble with friends, I'm sorry ah. Also, the time to eat lunch very painful . seeing all of you can get lunch for five minutes, the same time, I only eat one or two. plus have to take medicine before, if found in time, I put all the pills into the mouth, and then, and water ingestion stomach. look around, if there are people I keep company, to hard big mouth to eat. Unfortunately, even if how hard I tried, and now the last person finished, or me. Mom specially made can not just throw away the lunch, of course, but time was not well with, I'm sorry ah, mom. every time they go home to eat the rest of the time, my mother would say: hh my lunch = Aya + black. Y sub-sub and S and I as inseparable as bodyguards, but also helped me a lot of busy. . I said: I do not have the right to choose, we can not expect to always be friends. if you keep holding no problem with friends this optimism that I will probably never own a chance to walk alone to a certain miss hh ah hh local efforts to accomplish a certain thing you want to, want to roar like a madman, but also want to force the body to guffaw hh exhausted a lot of places to go. library, cinema, cold stores that I like to sit hh window seat where a touch of lemon tea drinking! but now on their own, and I can not go anywhere. Even then angry, then reconciled, but can not do anything, can only dream of in the hands of tears. I'm really weak! but ho no approach. This year I was crying like a possessed, like a ghost, how can be done to get rid of it. Now, I have learned to secretly sobbed silently. but cry a little while, my nose will be red The. crying on the body in fact no good at all, not only tired, eye pain, nasal congestion, but will also affect the appetite this time hh really a lot of trouble for everyone. I know the relationship between people is very complex and Who is not to say I'm bad, but who can know what is happening behind the thing? the same as my illness? hum hh
7. my diagnosis (1)
I had bipolar disorder , lacrimal gland disease failure, fear of male patients, less desire disorder, loss of confidence in disease hh I can not speak loudly, more and more weak abdominal muscles, the reason is it reduces lung capacity? I do not understand why. My body seems to have not I own. perhaps because the scope of action gradually reduced, I do not know exactly what you want to do. just simply want to do something it does not matter whatever mm! Even so, we all love always treated kindly I'm cranky, so instead I am even more painful. go to the toilet when the class, Y Son also came to help me with, for which she was late for ten minutes with me. anger also emerged stronger. good air, good can not be reconciled! why even such a thing can not be yourself!? now I any different disabilities?! ears can not hear, but it is not convenient, but me? thought about my future to be happier, and ordinary people must have the same survival skills! you only sixteen years old, Aya! still young, come on! teacher will use class time for elected officials and players. class IV fifteen, a total of forty-four members. If they want to be redundant as people will only make you sad, then his own existence as a silent guardian angel good. I can pick out the waste ground, close the window no problem, want to be able to do a lot now I am going to hold hh not go! not, how can I like to give up?! But no matter how hard, how to pump myself up, toward the goal that has been a teacher, siblings and friends, I would appreciate the deeper the sorrow of their own. I went to see the marathon cross-country alone, from which you want to see some moving, some kind of power , but the results feel more depressed but confused. because the diagnosis (2)
PE when I can only observe, read their favorite book. willow wrote a large reservoir, True History of a Gun book ; in the future would be like These are the most efficient method hh part I should seriously consider. I feel really miserable. However, there are at least half of the benefits of doing, if not so comforting myself, I can not do anything. the body gradually become more rigid because of cold weather brought to you? or further deterioration of the? walk, even in front of a handrail, I will not grip and fall hh because the road has become dangerous for me where her mother every day to and from school are required to drive transfer. en route to work before my mother sent me to the school gate, and then hold me down, and then I go leaning on her mother's shoulder shoe door, and then while I change into sneakers (we wear indoor shoes) of the gap, my mother and then help me get the bags and lunch on the second floor of the classroom. In this way, empty-handed, I will be able to grip handrails, walked slowly into the classroom. After school, I go to school until the pastry shop across the six. fell, the right cheek badly hurt. S son has helped me a favor, but really do not know how to thank we go.
8. empty two hours (the waiting time in the snack shop)
extracurricular activities after school, many students came to dessert shop, which they see though a little embarrassed, but it is also no way of things, I've learned to be patient. In two hours of terror, I have to force their people into the store looking at, but also to keep pressing their ears to listen to some unnecessary conversation. Oh hh that wasted time. take the bus to go to school although it was boring, but it can strongly feel the warm atmosphere between people, but also feel the streets are lined with poplars, head furnishings stores attractive fruit flavor that comes out of this season hh unique atmosphere. really do not want to forget such a breath of ah hh However, my back has left me unable to forget the memory of mm more when I was on the road, of course, next to the A friend in the arm. Suddenly, I strongly feel that someone is watching their back, so could not help speed up the pace nervously. look around at the same time, I somehow pulled up the collar. It was at this time, I came from behind the collapse of the words mm will be crying already! you're just high school students do! crying? Why can not as before, always a smile on his face? I really want to return to the past ah! If you have a time machine, I want to take it back to the past. see who can run, can walk, Can I play with his companions hh However, now I still have to face reality. Do not have to return to reality? I no longer want to grow up! time to stop and come on! Do not shed tears! Oh, Emi , it appears that Asia is also the lacrimal gland is really bad, have not stop crying the hh is now nine at night. Even if the world does not turn the clock, the time or been moving forward, is not it? life is limited, the time is unlimited. really want to stop here to cranky ah! Actually, I like to walk. country, one, I was about five kilometers away from the visual center of the road home. pick flowers in full bloom along the way, walking and looked up blue sky, watching clouds that sail across, trouble seems to have gone with the wind a sorrow. so than riding a bike or drive, I still like most on foot. Well, if you can walk alone like a hh have a friend, said: When a person hh No, I hate only one person, I fear, when only one person! what did I live? I always accept the help of others, they themselves did not give feedback to others. Perhaps learning The purpose of survival for me, but in addition, I have not find any I can do things. even if only three meters long corridor, I can not pass. Do not rely on spiritual strength of human survival forever?! alone upper body, is not it really can not move?! I want to be as air, so that we suddenly found out later should cherish, and hope that he is gentle personality, easy to understand people. adjust the seat today, I was transferred to the front of the go. each class late, I would think from where, how can I most quickly return to their seats? seems that only a slide of this solution. If you suddenly find yourself a little neglect of the body, you can easily tired, yawning, stuffy nose, and I feel have become bad. This afternoon snacks are burning line, good eat! Although only half past two, but is almost dark. from Inari home could see the mountain cherry trees, the leaves withered almost all unconsciously. so think about it, in the school should also have ginkgo leaves turn yellow, right? I can only rely on the shoulder leaning friends corridor handrails or walking, as long as I looked up it will fall. teaching demonstration on that day, but fortunately did not come to visit family, I do not want my mother to come to school. That will do, I do not like people to differential treatment, looked to the next from the eyes, said: it? dinner, the thought of this, they could not stop my tears to flow down. now become so unbearable, perhaps later it may become useless? Mom, I'm sorry. always let you down. Director Council meeting that day, my mother and together they were called to talk. If my math add a little oil, can be promoted to the studies of overtime! Aya! sure to come on! is now eleven p.m., Luna showing his face through the east window, smiled at me. turn off the lights, so the atmosphere is very suitable for quiet prayer, right? and physical health to get along with classmates, in any case can not erase mm inner shame I really feel very painful. But Sometimes then I thought, maybe this shame can be turned into motivation to learn, right? I have to think so. I like to East High (Aichi Prefectural Fung east high school), like the teacher, like S Son, Y sub- are like. I like when I wait for my mother at the snack shop, to ...
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